lost

letting go. at the precise point when i refuse to take this action, growing stops. if i hold tightly to anything given to me, unwilling to let it go when the time comes to let it go or unwilling to allow it to be used as the Giver means it to be used, i stunt the growth of my soul.

and this is where i tend to make the mistake. "if He gave it to me," i say, "it's mine. i can do what i want with it." NO. the truth is that it is mine to thank Him for & mine to offer back to Him, mine to lose, mine to let go-IF i want to find my true self, if i want true life, if my heart is set on glory.

"the more you perceive God's purpose in your life,
the less terrible the losses seem."
-Elizabeth Elliot

We, who have been given an intelligence and a will and a wide range of wants that can be set against the divine Pattern for Good, are asked to BELIEVE Him. We are given the chance to trust Him when He says to us"...if any man will let Himself be lost for my sake, he will find his true self."

and this is where will connects with heart. i heard it explained once that a seed does not "know" what will happen when it falls from the fruit. It only knows what is happening-the falling, the darkness, the dying. but i was made to live. really live.

and this is where i start.